Hi clearblue

It`s a myth that TSH shows thyroid function. This is the problem and the reason why many many people have normal tests yet have sometimes severe hypothyroid symptoms. Sometimes they are given Thyroxine and they are ok at first and improve, then they start to show hypo symptoms again - they gain weight and become depressed but their doctors just tell them to get out more and stop eating so much, when in fact their bodies need more medication but the doctors will not go by symptoms, thinking that the blood tests are reliable. It is a scandal. In the past doctors went by symptoms and gave natural thyroid hormone which meant that people were receiving the T3 that many cannot convert with only T4 ie Thyroxine and people did much better than today when doctors are obsessed with blood tests. For a start, error in the labs is high. It is vital to go by symptoms too and not just tests.

That`s a very interesting about the pollution in the egg shells. I buy organic but for all I know they could be contaminated though I do wash them well. Thanks for that, I will have to think about it. Maybe I should boil them first. Chicken in Europe has salmonella and in fact I caught it twice this year so I must boil the eggshells though I am not sure if ACV will kill it.

I look into a supplement after reading whether people with my illnesses have special needs for it for example magnesium is always needed, and then I see if I have symptoms of deficiency, which I have regarding calcium at present, my teeth seem softer and my nails are weak. Then I test myself with self kinesiology.

I have been making a lot of progress with getting the supplements I need, treating my thyroid and getting many things sorted out now that I am back in my own country and back in the benefit system with free health care, not that I get any but if I get run over I will need it lol. However I am not detoxing much and have not been able to use my frequency device to kill pathogens for a few weeks now. I guess I will just have to stay on hold with that though I am starting Nattokinase to get rid of biofilms so hope that will help. It is hard to keep up hope when there is no sign of improvement ie having herxes. It is hard to live here in other ways too as the two people leave a lot of mess but apart from that, they are reasonably healthy and it really shows how little I can do compared to them, who are both over 50 and work full time - it sort of rubs it in for me, but it is good to be somewhere where people are avilable to shop for me if I am unwell as we help each other out like that. I am trying to concentrate on the positive things and know that this situation is probably temporary.

I also feel like I am living in a completely different world to them. They are normal and never think about their health unless they have a bug of course whereas my whole time is taken up working on mine and also they have not had to deal with trauma and still livbe in a world where `bad things don`t happen to good people`. All of my former beliefs have been destroyed but they still have them so it is like living close to Matians lol. They must think the things I do are really strange - like taking raw garlic. They would rather have a cold than do that lol.

It is so hard to deal with my sons anniversary especially when no-one remembers my grief at that time. You never gft over the death of one`s children you just live with it. It is so unatural.

I don`t know much about the ion exchange or energen type machine only frequency generators. I am supposing that you used anti-biotics to get rid of your Lyme. Did they work well? I think that maybe I will never gwet rid of it completely but at least I know how to keep the symptoms at bay.

Thanks again for your inspiring and enlightening posts - I see that you are helping others with your wisdom and experience. You are of great benefit here. I know you cannot generalise but can I ask you how I can open things up with my 28 year old son who still does not see how his father is abusing him apart from the alcoholism? Is it best to just let him work things out for himself regarding the way his father has manipulated hi9m and his brother. How old were you when you ` got it`?

best wishes and gratitude
mati

Hi Mati,
Its nice to hear from you, read your post.
I am amazed at your knowledge about the complexities of thyroid.
There is many things with hormones and metabolic disturbances that can contribute to the
symptoms of Lyme.
Have you had the Thyrotropin Releasing Hormone test? It is a thyroid test more accurate
then the thyroid(blood test)panel.
If you look to skin,skin health changes,dry skin the growth replacement exchange is 28 days.
Your skin being the largest organ is the easiest available organ to check for health.
You can also benefit in using lymph fluid by brush/stroking (boars hair brush good) your skin to stimulate the Lymph fluid
to gather and cleans.
A brake down in your tooth/teeth surface cold be from upper gi/digestion problems.
High acidic gastric juices,acidic saliva,reflux will weaken teeth.
How is your gum and tongue health?

Room mates can be a challenge.
I have had a houseful for so long.
One thing I learned is nobody-me included enjoys a mess,before or after it needs
cleaning,lol.
We have invented the lost sock conspiracy theory at my house,lol.
All of our guests bring joy,some by arriving and some by leaving,haha.

I was 42yrs when I got Lyme.
I knew many people and horses and dogs who had embedded ticks.
We used to use bagbalm on them to draw them out.
No one ever got sick from ticks.
Then I noticed the ill health and red mange in the deer population.
Birds were found dead more often too.
Then Lyme came on the scene.
I think it is a cycle of sorts.
I have lived most of my life in the wilderness,water areas.
I never worried about insect bites.
I rarely get bit by any bug or flea.
Now a person has to be so careful.
Bees,stings carry hepatitis and other disease.
I think I might have actually got a strange exposure to something
when I stepped in bear dung.
The area was swampy and I had a cut on my foot(instep) at the time.
The wound on my foot was slow to heal and grew dark fibers.
It was shortly after I got Lyme bullseye and rash.
Never felt the bite itself.
Yes, I did eventually take antibiotic therapy.
I lowered the dose mg by half after the first 30 days of high dose.
You have to be careful while using antibiotic because a chance it may slowly grow trouble
in your intestines.
Plenty of fluids and counter action foods will keep it cleared.

Remember when you take anything to check the colon storage time,build and re-circulation,body reuse time. Somethings have quite a body life,like a shelf life.
Because of the colon time it is easy to overdose the body systems while taking the appropriate dose.


To begin a conversation with your son I would make simple,sincere invites.
I would like to say..(I love you)...
I have missed you.
I would like to know you.
I would like to listen to you.
I feel happy..(to hear your voice)
I feel joy we have talked.
I feel hopeful to talk again soon.

I would steer clear of victim statements,apologizing or rationalizing.
I would not make "care" statements.
Not because you do not or have not cared.
Only because after a time of separation those feelings can not be mended in minute words.
It would take many right words,exchanges and that requires time.
A first,opening conversation does not afford the time or patience for wrong words either.
Your message should be truthful,simple.
How long has it been since you spoke?
This idea would be for a first conversation with the hope of continued conversations.
I know people and families do have many past,present and future feelings to express.
Once a relationship is stable there will be room for exchanges and growth that include
all those elements.
I feel to much may overwhelm and a heavy heart or a heart on the sleeve can be
more then the first moments of expression,reaction can bear.
You are planting a seed.
Seed of hope,love,joy.
Nurture the seed in feeling,from the heart and the right words will follow.
Be patient with yourself seed after you have planted it.
Will you go in person or by phone or mail?

I really feel for your child loss.
I know in my heart a person feels loss deeply.
Because you feel loss in silence,alone I know you must be very strong.
I hope you make a connection with a comforter.
Even a strong person needs another.


I hope you get over the herxes stage soon.
It is a yucky yuck time.
Its toxin overload.

Maybe your room mates will give you some company and share some laughter.
What is your very favorite spare time pursuit?
Take good,kind care of you.
You have so much health knowledge.
Could you volunteer or join a health group?
Even a diet group could benefit from your wisdom.

Best health, wishes.

The psychopath that I was involved with for 12 years was a recovering alcoholic who had attended hundreds of AA meetings before I ever met him. He quit drinking, quit using drugs, and stopped smoking cigarettes. I admired his ability to turn his life around and become clean and sober. But like everything in a psychopath's life, AA and his sobriety were just things he could use to impress and manipulate people.

Although the bottle, drugs, and smokes were gone, he remained the same vile person he always was. But thanks to AA and the Big Book, this psychopath had an arsenal of clever sayings he could throw into conversations to wow people into believing he was so brilliant and amazing! Some of his favorite quotes from AA were: "practice rigorous honesty" or "the God of my understanding" or "alcohol is powerful, cunning, and baffling." In reality, he practiced relentless lying, hated God, and as a psychopath, he was powerful, cunning, and baffling.

I feel for you being pulled between your sons, your illness, and the alcoholic psychopath. But if I was in your shoes, I'd communicate often with the sons, take really good care of yourself, and not attempt to help the psychopath. There is a good book called: "Broken Open" and it says: "if you didn't break them, you can't fix them." I like that. I've put that thought into practice in my own life and it's helped a lot. Maybe it can help you.

Hi clearblue

I have looked at the Thyrotropin Releasing Hormone test but know my GP will not order it and I have already spent far too much on private tests, none of which have been of much use for the naturapaths who ordered them to be of much help to me. The last one I consulted was supposed to be the best one treating Lyme in Germany but I knew he had not understood the extent of my sickness when he ordered herbal remedies in alcohol when alcohol is the last thing anyone with weak adrenals should take and he wanted me to take hydrocortisone.

Many people with thyroid problems which are not being sorted out by doctors learn as much as me and more. There are a few web sites with really knowledgable people on who teach and advise. I really don`t know that much.

Yes skin brushing us indeed good for the lymph glands and it is anotheer thing that I was doing previously but thanks to your reminder have started again. I have been having a back massage which has helped. These sort of things are not so good in badly heated rooms in winter however. I am not herxing and that is the problem.

My gum and tongue health are farly good which makes me think it is calcium I need. I recently bought an electric toothbrush which does not vibrate too strongly for me to bear so that will help gum health. I discovered that it is the cheaper ones that vibrate badly.

Mosquitoes carry Lyme too and other diseases. I got bitten last year and think that I got another type of Lyme or something else from the bite as my health was much worse after that. Mosquitoes make a beeline for me and I have heard that this is so with anyone with Lyme. Mabe the Lyme bacteria put out a scent to attract insects.

Thanks so much for your reply about communicating with my son. I have not lost contact with him but it is difficult and sometimes I do not hear from him for months and mainly it is e-mail contact. I did see him when I first got back in the same home town after being away for 2 years and he gave me a hug when I answered the door,but things seem very unstable and I think you are right in that I can only speak to him according to the state of the relationship from his side and also not forgetting that he is on methadone. He asks me for money at times when he is in great been ie when he and his father and brother have had to move house which is 3 times now and I have given him money and last time loaned it but there are no signs that it will be repayed and in fact I have decided it was a gift but it will be the last time. Gererally things are on a superficial level but when he told me about his father I got too involved and maybe offered advice when I should not have done. He thought his father was willing to stop drinking and I said I could not see it and indeed he has not. I hate to be dragged back in like this and would rather not know about what his father is doing but my son needs someone to talk to but I guess I should tell him I am not the right one. But there is a pull I can barely stop, of me getting sucked in to help his father again and sort him out lol.

My son does know that I love him and he knows I am there for him and I never make demands from him or tell him about my health or struggles. I have been feeling though that he generally only wants me when he wants money and the rest of the time I hardly hear much from him. I try to stay non judgmental to save the relationship and know that being a drug addict, he will be wrapped up in his own problems. It has been very hard work for me to stay in touch with him he has treated me so badly at times like I have no feelings and do notdeserve the same consideration that other humans have. This is how his father treated me though.

My fellow lodger is getting on my nerves at present as he is so noisy. His voice is loud and he like the tv to be loud, its just his way but I am keeping out of his way for the moment. What I am enjoying at the moment is there are quite a few educational programs on tv about Germany and I have a fascination with the place and language so that is keeping me happy at the moment and I can watch on my computer in my own room and escape the rest fo the house. Hey, you live in a shared house too!

The latest think I am taking ie Nattokinase is great - I already feel a difference in my mental function - it thins the blood.

Thanks again for writing

best wishes to you too

mati