Well I just wanted to let you all know how grateful I am for this board

I have had to spend the last few weeks actaully dealing with my Ex Psychopath. My son got quite sick and was in the hospital for a few days, and just having to be in the same room with him off and on was very Trying. (Luckily my wonderful husband spent the entire time at the hospital with me as well.) let alone having to go for follow up appointments ( not that he attends everything but for some reason he does expect that I will keep him updated on what I have been told by the doctors)

It was starting to frustrate me that the Ex Psychopath, never once actually seemed concerned about my son. Although He would usually only come if his parents and girlfriend were there, there were a couple times where he showed up in the middle of the night (stoned) and would wake my son up - and I had to step in and tell the ExP that he coudln't do things like that.

My son would wake up in the middle of the night allot and grab my hand, say hi mom, tell me he loved me,then he would look to the other side of the bed and smile and wave at my husband, but then he would say mom where's dad? and before I could say anything he would jsut just "he's not here again is he?" then he would go back to sleep - heartbreaking but eye-opening I could see that he knows what his dad is all about.
When my son was being discharged from the hospital he called his dad at 9am and his dad said well if you are getting out today I won't bother driving all the way up there. Even though my son wasn't being discharged until atleast 5pm

My son came to me later in the week while he was home recovering and just said thanks for not leaving me at the hospital. I said I wouldn't have been anywhere else.
It was a great week, in the showing me the strong relationship I have with my son.

What kept me strong in dealing with my frustrations with the ExP's erratic and completly non emotional, non caring attitude was remembering the stories I have read about Ps on this board, and it kept me focussed on not worrying or thinking about what the heck was his problem why didn't he care about his son while he was sick (you know how you can find yourself doing that? and not focus on what is important - you get so angry or hurt that someone doesn't care that you don't focus on what you should be.) . I knew why I know that it will never change he is a Psychopath and that is that. So I was able to only focus on what was important and it was liberating for me.

SO THANKS to you all for sharing your stories, your insight and your kindness you have been a godsend

I hope you all have a wonderful holiday season and a very happy new year

Hello jwils871, welcome to the forum. I was just heading out the door.

I am sure others and I will for sure get back to you tomorrow, glad you found us.

I figure that our community members have had a long journey of pain and abuse and don't need any more. We have a zero policy.

Di