I can't believe I'm actually posting here. I feel like I'm going mad, or over-reacting or something! Deep down, though, I really think my Dad may be a psychopath.
He was physically abusive towards me when I was little.
He has a stare that he spends most of his time in. It's like a wide eyed daze, staring straight through people.
He has a frightening rage that is like a switch being flicked, for no particular reason.
He has no empathy.
He gets angry at even the most respectful criticism of him.
He has no interest in conversation that is not about him.
He belittles emotions & displays of affection.
He is always bored, yet has no hobbies. He has no interest in anything, other than singing, which he enjoys, as he is a vocalist & this brings him lots of attention when performing.
It is impossible to feel relaxed in his company. Always feel on edge, like what you see is not what you get. I feel like there is something much darker underneath. I'm frightened of what he might be capable of, if there were no comebacks, yet I feel silly for feeling like that, as much of the time he seems so normal!
He is critical of most other people
He is the life & soul of the party, yet a boring, dull, depressive, constantly fatigued, ticking time bomb, behind closed doors.
He re-writes history to suit himself
He gaslights when questioned
He puts no effort into personal relationships & seems unable to predict consequences of his actions & neglect.
The opinions of others are worthless. He is right.
However, in his finances, money is everything, & he is very pedantic over his taxes, insurances etc.
He has always held down a job. Nothing spectacular, just an average office job.
He was in the Police, & so is very law abiding, but believes he has special entitlement in other social situations, such as interrupting others, putting his needs first, telling others how they should behave etc. There are rules for everyone else, but not for him.
Could he be a psychopath, albeit a high functioning one?