I am in the process of "No Contact". Without going into all the same details everyone else has experienced....Adoration, love bombing, devaluation...I am trying to work through our tumultuous history to determine if I carry some of the same traits as my ex-psychopath. As he devalued me with less and less texts, calls and his charming personality, I grew angrier...first questioning him on what was wrong. Of course I got the same response every time "Nothing is wrong, I'm busy, in a bad mood, work sucks", etc. As it went on, it got to the point of me sending lengthy, thought-felt but wordy texts detailing why I felt he was treating me differently then in the beginning of our relationship. He'd never respond or would respond with one or two word answers when I barraged him with questions. Then I would get furious, calling him names and flying off the handle. I was trying to get him to understand he was treating me crappy, but I now know he didn't care what I felt. The fact that I also tried to manipulate him into treating me better bothers me. I feel the rage that I projected on him because of his devaluation of me makes me the one who is the emotional manipulator...???? I am seeing a therapist now and I will be asking if she is experienced in Narcissistic abuse, since I feel that type of therapist would help me to sort this out. Anyone else feel this way when confronted with looking back on your relationship?