Your story sounds horrible, but it is a little hard to follow. How did your mom control you, medicate you? How did she know she was losing control? How did your Mom try to kill you? How did you make the break from her and what risks did you face? If you have a brother with ASPD, has anyone considered that she has it too and it is hereditary? What are the symptoms of ASPD in your brother? ASPD are psychopaths and are not easily controlled or manipulated, they pride themselves on being the manipulators. Why is he ill? Help us understand your story better.