I'm new here, just axed my psychopath days ago. I wasn't with him very long (although I had dated him briefly seven years ago), only two months, and when he dropped me cold and started giving me crumbs to keep me hooked while he screwed everyone he could, I left him a voicemail telling him off (I know he couldn't of cared less) and blocked him. Anyway, the sexual aspect of it is what hurts the most and I thank everyone for sharing their experiences. I was wondering about the child abuse factor. I don't know his past, but I believe he would have sex with anything with a heartbeat. I think he is bisexual and I question whether he was/is abusing a teenage boy. I have no evidence whatsoever that that has occurred other than a strange feeling. When he reconnected with me he was on vacation out of the country and was "childminding" a friends teenage son to teach him about international travel. I thought that was odd but ignored it because I was in the lovebomb phase. Every time it crossed my mind it made me cringe, but once again, I ignored and justified it. He is such a hyper-sexual predator that I don't know how he would be able to hide that from a child he was vacationing with. Now that the spell is broken I'm seeing more of the light. I don't know the child or the mother but it's concerning. I'm also confused and questioning my own sexual morality because 1.) I put up with a lot of disrespectful behavior (ex. he would just send random texts during the day that said "kneel" or he would want to dress me and show me off) and went past my sexual boundaries to please him (I seemed to have wanted to do anything for his "love" that I would never had done before we were together). 2.) After all of that, I'm still hurt that he hasn't gone leaps and bounds to contact me. He's been silent. I should be appalled and outraged and not checking my phone constantly to see if he found away around my blocking him. This is just another way I feel mindf&^ked. I feel like the scum of the earth for still caring about the actions of a possible child predator. What is wrong with me?