Congratulation Betterway! I am glad you were able to move on. I understand when you are talking about as much pain to stay to leave! You must feel relieved. You are lucky that you were able to do so. Good luck! I am sure that everything will be better. Good thing is that you have "mature" in the old dirty context and now, you are ready to plunge in the new, smarter. I know that break is not that easy but the big step was to educated yourself and you have done so, slowly you will be great.

Finished,

I don't know if you have realized but you sound so much better. You must be. I am glad for you. It is great. i have been very thankful for your post. Keep on going,

Betrayed,
We have not heard from you for a long time now. I hope you are doing well. I have been thinking that for days what has happened to you. anyhow all best wishes to you.

Congratulations betterway , what a great big step you are taking. I wish you the best in your new job.

I lost a big client because I left my old office - The P's territory. I'm trying to be positive. I know that new doors will open. Makes me very angry at the P. There is no reason why I should of left. He is the evil one, he should leave. I am going to try to make the best of the situation and know that in the long run I am doing whats right, to just get away. The client I am loosing is now blowing me off, and I have helped him so so much in the past. Hmmm, reminds me of the P. Any behavior that reminds me of the P. just makes me feel sick. Its gonna hurt the finances. My health is worth it though.
betterway

Betrayed!!
Yes! Me too girl!! Where are you? I also have had you on my mind every day for quite some time. You have been so instrumental in my road to recovery. . .please let us know if you are okay. (((betrayed)))
love
finished

Betterway. . .

>>I know that new doors will open. Makes me very angry at the P. There is no reason why I should of left. He is the evil one, he should leave. I am going to try to make the best of the situation and know that in the long run I am doing whats right, to just get away.<<

Yes Betterway, you are doing what is right. . .not easy. . .but right. It will all work out for you. . .as you say. . .in the long run.

Way to go Betterway. . .what a huge step in reclaiming your life (after P).

:-)
finished

Hi (((((Finished and Hopefull and Forum)))))

I'm feeling lonely, sad, lost, depressed. Been sleeping alot.Saw wacko boy last week, as I was driving by him downtown. Shook me up just seeing him, I don't think he spotted me.He looked really psycho. I still am having so many problems just absorbing what what was done to me. It still feels so unreal. I think it takes a long time for the shock to wear off. I've stopped posting for now. Its just too traumatic for me , dredging it up, started losing my hair again at the front. Plus its starts the thoughts whirling again.After all my hair fell out in September 2000, I started growing it back on my head, but it was pure white, and only in a few spots, like fuzz, or an old ladies hair that is 110 years old. Wore a hat all the time, to cover my head. Tried finding a wig but they looked hideous, or like a hookers. Anyways in March 2002, I got rearended by a large delivery truck. Totalled my vehicle, and I have had severe whiplash and problems with my arms ever since.The good news was for some weird reason, my real hair started growing back in, about 2 weeks after the accident. By July 2002 , I had enough hair to take that hat off. It feels so good to have hair again. Looks really cool with the white interspersed with it. My eyebrows and eyelashes have come back, too. Unfortunately my armpit and leg hair too. LOL. The white is slowly falling out and my regular hair replacing it. I don't dare take a chance on losing it again, so I not posting again for a while. I can feel my scalp just start to tingle, whenever I post about the P. Settled up with the insurance company, last week, I didnt want to prolong it into a court case. Missed a lot of garage sales last year, because I felt so crappy. Thus my stock is way down,thus my sales, so was forced to settle early. Needed the money. It helped to pay off some of the debt I still owe, so has lightened my burden. Sorry to be so depressing, but this too shall pass. I read all of your posts, and I am rooting for all of you. Take care. Maybe it will be easier for me to talk once we get that CHAT line in. Hint, hint Diane.

Betrayed.

Hi Betrayed, great to hear from you. Bad news about the psychopath, great news about your hair.

I will get back on the chat thing. I just finished relocating and I know I promised. We have the room all set up, will have to dust off the chairs. I will send emails tonight to our helpful forum angels to get it rolling.

Is there a night that works best for everyone? Our room is on Newnet and is #psychopaths, but will have a clickable link for those that don't want to load mirc (it's free). Once we get the room open I can help those who want to download the mirc software (which gives you more features than the link).

Di

hi (((((betrayed))))),
Your posts have always been very helpful. I'm rooting for you also, and hope you will feel like sharing again soon. Take care of yourself! betterway